I used to have REALLY long hair. As in past my butt. My hair is very thick and thick long hair is horrible in TX. Plus I was getting head aches from the weight. The past few years I've kept it short. I'm debating keeping it about shoulder length. I like the idea of a pony tail again. I also like having it up off my neck. I can't decide. I have an appointment this morning. I guess I'll see what comes out of my mouth when Anna asks me what I want to do. I am so horrible with decisions lately.

I have today off. Because Amy is coming to town and we're gonna have lunch. Then I'm gonna bake up a storm because we're having some of my coworkers over for dinner tomorrow. I'm really excited about my day today. Gardening, salon visit, lunch out, Central Market shopping, and cooking!

I've been trying to embrace my lack of a career. I've been feeling very depressed about it lately. So depressed that I started throwing myself into my part time job like it was a full time career position. Not the "make a little money so we can go on vacation and pay for our infertility habit" job that it is. Not that I won't do my job and do it well. I just don't need to stress about it as much. I teach kids in after school programs. It's fun and I get paid. If I ever decide to teach this will look good on a resume. I do not need to become the Holly on a mission to succeed, that I was when I had a successful career. Don't put me on a mission. If you do get the hell out of my way.

Now if only the whole becoming a Mom could be mission. If it could I would be one already.